You are your worst enemy

Ever heard of the expression, "You are your worst enemy?" Sure, you think. But have you really thought, "Yes, I am." When you know that you are banned from eating that piece of chocolate cake because you are incredibly fat and you need to lose weight, you take a little nibble thinking no damage will be done. But oh no, a nibble is not enough....YOU MUST HAVE MORE! You then snatch the whole cake and stuff your face. Right there you have lost the battle between you and yourself. You are the loser. Loser!

So when you know and recognize things that are not right for yourself, you shouldn't do it. You shouldn't follow your old pattern because you know it is wrong. This is a trap that many fall into. For example, women fall for the jerks and in turn get jerked with. You break up with the jerk, but as soon as you turn around another one pops up from the ground like a gremlin! At first you think, "How cute!" But really, it is a snarling beast!

I must admit I have from time to time fallen for many gremlins. I had a friend who reminded me several times this week that I always seem to meet genuinely bad men. It made me angry at first that this fact was being rubbed into my face, but later realized that what she said was true. I needed to face this fact. So I have. So now I sit here, writing this blog entry contemplating ever trusting or dating anyone ever again. I say, if I were catholic and religious I would commit myself to a nunnery! So here I am, the victim, not the victor. I am my worst enemy. I don't think I would make a very good general in a battle. The enemy within will cause me to lose my battle.