Thursday, August 19, 2010

What do you feel when you stare into the picture of the people you've dated?

Okay, so I've been facebook stalking again. lol I got bored a guess. While I was stalking I took a long look at someone I had previously dated. What were my feelings you ask? It as a mix of feelings. Embarrassment. Pity, for myself and for him. Disappointment. Then I began to ask, "What happened? What did I do? How did I ruin it?" At first I laid all the blame on me. Then I asked, "Were you ever sincere? Did all you want was ass? Did you know from the start that you were going to get a way out? Where you using me? Did it feel good, using me?" I laid the blame on him and saw him as an evil human being. How can one use and abuse others? How can people treat other people like that? How do they live? How do they go on to love other people and at the same time be loved by other people? When I think about this I then feel stupid for associating myself with such a person.

As I was stalking away I realized something...I can't let go of the past. I keep on going back and reminiscing about my past daters/loves. I seriously need to move on. They've had no thought for me, so why should I give up one more second of my life thinking of them?

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